Lost Days


Regretting the Future

My mother was a key figure in my life. She is the person who found me, and loved me enough to adopt me. I owed her more than I could return. It is regrettable that I won't be able to share my future acomplishments with her.

I know she was always proud of me, no matter what I did. She was there for me for the regular things like graduating from high school and college. Then the less regular things like getting a job and getting married. Next were the more unusual things like my divorce and moving to Japan. She supported me and helped me through all of it.

As I approach graduating with yet another bachelor's degree, I think of how she won't be able to partake in my triumph. I also think of things yet to come: settling into a career, getting married again, and having children. I wish I could have done all of that before she passed, but know she would be proud of me when I do accomplish such things.